So my life is good... I have a 13 month old who adores me, and a husband who loves me! But then there's me...I adore nothing about myself, and love nothing about myself. To be honest I think totally opposite! I'm one of those people who have a pretty face but a fat body. I hate being told I'm pretty because that is not what I see... I hate undressing in front of my husband, I hate being naked in front of my husband.
Recently he told me he wanted a crotch rocket (motorcycle). Well my reply was, " i've never seen a big person on the back of one" his reply "oh yes, I have" Right there just told me he thinks of me as being big. I paused and said when I lose 100 lbs you can buy one, " Do you want me to lose 100 lbs"? Yes... I held it in, even though it hurt my feelings so bad.
I know I need to lose weight, I need to lose more than 100 pounds, but hearing it from someone you love makes you feel so bad. I have tried and tried to lose weight countless times, but failed I know I didn't try hard enough. But now it's time. I'm only 21 so I know it's possible, but no motivation and support makes it alot harder.
I had read some people that had weight loss stories and they said blogging helped alot. So I am willing to try anything. I just hope I can do this not only for me.. but my family!
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